I used to hate being touched. I could not stand people touching me, let alone receiving a massage. The anxiety I felt during massage was so bad that I would often start crying mid-massage, then pretend that I had to pee and proceed to run out of the room wearing only a sheet. The anxiety was unbearable. On the table, I didn't know how to tell the therapist that it was STILL way to much pressure. And they needed to slow down. And ugh can't they tell I am freaking out!
When I turned 21, my body had finally had enough. I became incredibly sick and was in bed for months. This led me on a journey to rediscovering myself, my body, and touch.
The journey back to my body began with a shaman. After a single session, I was thrown into the fires of healing. My illness had disappeared. I ended up training with her in the art of energy medicine for two years. During this time, we did a lot of work around embodiment, touch, and coming back into myself. Soon, touch began to feel good. I began to enjoy my body. Pleasure became accessible to me. I started receiving massage all of the time. Sometimes a few times a week!
The new love for body work lead me to massage school, where I studied the ins-and outs of the body and its incredible landscape. I specialize in working with women who have experienced anxiety, high-stress environments, or trauma. I am currently in school at Naropa University for somatic psychology - the study of how the body relates to emotion, thought, trauma, state-shifts, and what embodiment truly means.
My mission as a massage therapist is to help other women experience pleasure in and with their bodies and to claim their right to be ecstatically alive, in all the places they touch the world.
About Integrative Massage
Integrative Massage, is a modality that addresses the whole person. I believe that when we work with the body, we are working with a physical, mental, emotional, spiritual being - not just a pile of muscles. This is a heart-centered technique that focuses on our de-armoring process. As we release our physical "armor" - or muscle tension - we can allow our best self to start to shine through. As our physical body starts to relax, loosen, and breathe, we actually start to feel more safe. We start to notice when we are stressed, and relate to our bodies in a new, dynamic way. We develop acute listening skills. As we change our physicality, our emotional and mental well being can also start to shift.